Sending hearts a flutter, capture

young hearts run free

2009-11-27T21:35:00.004+08:00

"Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience."
-Jonathan Larson

Guess I will not regret what I've done. Yesterday I had an awful time. Diarrhoea and tearing, there's like something wrong with my stomach. Okay now I sense something... again.

Hah and I was shocked you still remembered me. I thought I just disappeared. Hate it everytime I make a point to save conversations, it still died on me. Really wish that I could be someone good with words, someone not afraid to speak out. I'm still glad though. At least I'm not forgotten.

This will be my life quote: "If everything happened when and how we wanted it to, nothing would be worth waiting for."

I'm blogging more now!!!

facts

2009-11-24T20:59:00.007+08:00

Just feel like sharing:

HUGGING ALSO:

1. Eases tension
2. Fights insomnia
3. Keeps arm and shoulder muscles in condition
4. Provides stretching exercise if you are SHORT
5. Provides stooping exercise if you are TALL
6. Offers a wholesome alternative to promiscuity
7. Offers a healthier, safer alternative to alcohol and drugs
8. Affirms physical being
9. IS DEMOCRATIC, ANYONE IS ELIGIBLE FOR A HUG

I'm gonna blog more and if number 4. is true, please hug all the short people!!! Help them grow taller :) (includes myself) I just teared while pooping, and the first drop was from the right. Hapiness? Haha

cold

2009-11-23T15:30:00.013+08:00

Hi, I've been leading a life of a couch potato. Eating, sleeping and back to eating again.
I watched 2012 on Friday with Stacey. Nice, I like :) But there was this old couple sitting beside me, conversing in Hokkien and the husband talk non-stop and its really irritating. Like, 'Wah heng ah, he never die'. But nevermind, the movie is worth watching. Oh and I've got free cornery popcorn from Stacey. Haha, thanks :)

Anyway, I love my icons. They're so cute!

So how's my new skin?

Hear me out

2009-11-17T20:26:00.009+08:00

I'm a bad girl today. I shouldn't have said that to you. I should smile more.

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Next year, everything's gonna be different. I forgot to mention that I got posted to 3Endurance. A totally new environment for me. Happy with the subjects that I'm offered. But... friends, I'm so gonna miss 2Faith'09. Everyone should be happy with their new class next year and I wish you guys to do well for next year and welcome to my new class. When things get hard, we'll find a way. To add on, everyone please be nice to me! Hahaha

Happypill

2009-11-14T16:55:00.002+08:00

Please read this till the very end. This is very inspiring. You won't regret reading this.

Today I realized if it wasn’t for you I’d still be nothing. Still be the same kid that was falling for the wrong person and still believing lies, hurting myself more.

You have made things change for me. You don’t know how much, my friend. You helped me grow up. So I have to thank you for that. Thanks!

I am sorry for always leaving you hanging. For not completing my sentences which annoys you so much. But you just don’t get it, do you? The last time we talked, I was about to bring up an awkward topic. Which was? Us.

I wanted to know, what made you change your mind? You told me months ago you were “getting there”, and you just needed time, so you asked for me to wait. So I let you be. Hoping, waiting, each day that finally, you’re gonna say you’re alright and you were up for it and ready.

But that day never came. At first, I thought you just forgot and I just needed to remind you about it. But then I realized, well, normally people won’t forget about something that important, would they? You can’t possibly forget your feelings for someone! That’s just weiiiird! So. Then. I get it. Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore. Maybe I blew it off in some way. Maybe you changed your mind and realized you don’t feel that way anymore. You know, things changed.

If, by chance, you read this, I backed out and didn’t bring this up because I was afraid. You know, I cannot risk anything with you. I cannot be foolish in times like this. Your friendship’s all I got and if I lose that too? Well. I don’t know anymore..

So today I have realized many things.

1) Maybe I shouldn’t wait around anymore because there is really nothing to wait for. I have learned to be realistic, and that no matter how sincere promises are, things will happen that no one can control and will get in the way, and make everything suddenly different.
2) That people shouldn’t let go of words unless they mean every bit of it. Because if they don’t, sooner or later, someone’s gonna get hurt.
3) Never waste a moment dwelling on the past, waiting around. Do what you can. Do not be afraid, because YOU CAN DO IT. Believe. Because every second passed, it’s a moment that will never come back and be the same again.
4) Do not regret. Because remember, once upon a time, it was worth so much to you.
5) Do not blame yourself or anyone if things didn’t work out. Because, you know what? As the saying goes, whatever happens is the only thing that could have.

And most importantly, you cannot force anybody to feel the same way back. Because it’s their choice, NOT YOURS. All you could ever do is give your best, show what you feel, make every tad of a moment count, and if those feelings doesn’t reach the other person’s heart? Just be glad it grew in yours. :)

500th post!

2009-11-10T21:30:00.008+08:00

I'm finally 14! Thanks to you guys who wished me happy birthday. It really meant alot to me. So the day is coming to an end...

Yesterday, I went prawning @ Punggol. First time prawning and it was really fun! We went to barbeque all the prawns and etc. Shawn had to leave first so we bid him goodbye. The fire took a long time to start and Thanks Tanwhenn! Overall, had a really fun day with them. OH and I'll never forget the distance we have to walk to the prawning area. We walk for a long time and to think that there was a shuttle bus available. Love all of you!

I need to do something to my hair. It looks hideous.

Don't hate me

2009-11-08T18:07:00.007+08:00

We're all living under the same sky.

I'm in for a good treat today, pizza + ice-cream cake. Birthdays are such a blessing. Looks like I'll be 14 in 2days' time.

you're beautiful

2009-11-03T18:30:00.002+08:00

This song speaks for itself. I've been staying at home for the past 4 days or so. I've weird cravings right now. And tomorrow, the next episode of my show will be out :) Be contended with what you have. I'm not expecting more.

(2:32 PM) Yanxiu ▲: you know why he kana?
bcos im the virus
(2:32 PM) Jolene† : WTH HAHA
(2:32 PM) Yanxiu ▲: hahahaha im such a joke
(2:32 PM) Jolene† : OMG LA YOU HAHA
(2:32 PM) Yanxiu ▲: yay im in his body
(2:32 PM) Jolene† : noo ew
(2:32 PM) Yanxiu ▲: going round and round

I think I'm such a joke.

Happy Halloween!

2009-11-01T18:05:00.003+08:00

Hi people, I'm bored right now.
I'm having a massive headache.
I can't wait to lay on my bed.
Sometimes, its better not to think.
I'm having weird thoughts.

Do you see my point?
I think... i miss you

wake me up

2009-10-30T19:22:00.004+08:00

Sadly, this year is coming to an end. I love my class. 2Faith'09 :)

Today was the last day of school. I went to terminal 3 with Jolene, Catherine and Haziq to send all the fellow 2Faith-ers off to Nanjing. Had a great time and etc, and people, come back soon! Have fun! Went to eat with Jolene, Catherine and Jin Yi. Something happened. Haha, I shall not say what. I took bus 24 from Changi Airport all the way back to AMK. I think that bus trip alone took 2hours and my phone's battery went dead. And the places were so unfamiliar. Nevertheless, I got home.

This is a very detailed post and yeah, next year is gonna be a whole different journey. Next year I'm going to have a hard life. Next year, things might not be the same again. I'm having a hard time choosing my combination. I need to think.

Anyway, I miss loads of people. I do.

living under your misery

2009-10-27T16:44:00.001+08:00

Now I know how does it feels like to be ____. My day started out perfectly until 1+ while I was getting my lunch. Shocked, it was something that I never wanted it to happen again. I'm fine, thanks Stacey. If You ever asked me how I feel, I'll tell you truthfully - I don't feel good. At all. This.will.never.happen.to.me.I.promise. Let me just forget the whole incident, forget the whole damn thing.

My birthday is finally reaching. I'm excited :)

on my own

2009-10-23T19:33:00.003+08:00

Community Race was awesome today! I had to squeeze all the toothpaste and put them all back. I had my 2nd piggyback. I had my hands tied and I was being fed. I had to collect cardboards. I had to dress my team members with recycled materials. I had to build a house using cardboard. But, we were last ): But nevertheless I still had fun and I made new friends :) From YCK > Yishun > Khatib > Amk > Yck. It was like a real race and it was tiring. Just like Amazing Race!

Now that the student leader conference has ended, I've to go for CCA tomorrow. I know one thing for sure and that is, I'm not looking forward to it.

What combination should I take... I'm scared that I will not be able to make it. I'm scared that history will repeat itself.

And, I've no friends in facebook! Whats with facebook!

never enough

2009-10-20T21:39:00.003+08:00

Maybe I shouldn't blog today... because today just isn't my day. And I hate farewells, they make me tear. And this is my new beginning. Put an end to all this misery. I'm starting new. I got scolded today in front of many people. Scary but it all start because of a 'faster lah'. Screw my mouth. Okay, you don't get it. I don't want to explain.

Can I throw away today? :(

"Just because I’m quiet, doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say.
Just because I appear happy, doesn’t mean everything is okay.
Just because I forgive, doesn’t mean i forget.
Just because I don’t listen to your problems, doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just because I’m gullible, doesn’t mean I can be cheated.
Just because I’m stubborn, doesn’t mean I’m not easy going.
Just because I don’t study, doesn’t mean I’m stupid.
Just because I don’t show my feelings, doesn’t mean I don’t have any.
Just because I’m honest, doesn’t mean I’m outspoken.
Just becuase I’m not like you, doesn’t mean I’m weird.
Just because I’m unsure, doesn’t mean i’m afraid.
Just becuase I don’t love you, doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings for you."

I hate to end this, but this will be a new start. Of everything.

midsummer

2009-10-17T17:37:00.006+08:00

Its weird how busy you were before the exams and how free you are after the exams.

Everyone is talking about their results. I don't want to talk about my results. I haven't told my mom my results. This sucks. Shit happens. I'm in for more disappointment on Tuesday. But nevermind, I shall enjoy myself these few days first. Tomorrow's another boring day. Monday... And one more thing, I don't understand myself. I'm weird.

I hate it when people keeps things away from me. It seemed like everyone knows what is going on and I don't.

Okay... actually its another 24 days to my birthday. I don't know why am I counting down.

reality check

2009-10-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

I have been going out the past few days. I finally got a life.

Yesterday:

I went over to Catherine's house to bake. Overall, it was fun and the cookies were yummy! Haha, I had fun smashing the bananas :)

Today:

I woke up later than usual and it rained, therefore ruining my mood. My art preparation was a total disaster, didn't bother to colour and I was like the only one doing The Harbour... 2.5hours passed pretty fast and I went out with the funny gang. I hate it that Shawn always calls me a D_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. Then we ended up at Jacinth's place and I tried Pringles new Pink Chips! Was half-awake because the movie is boring and Er, I was not my usual self. Sorry though and I think I want an older brother.

Okay, time to get Home Econs stuff into my head. Last paper tomorrow!

disappear

2009-10-10T17:34:00.005+08:00

11647.) It makes me sad when I see a secret that I know is so true for me, but I wish it weren't.

There's always sunshine after the rain and there will be sunshine soon...

Nothing much about my life. my life is so boring. so boring that i could fall asleep now.

frayed wires

2009-10-07T15:19:00.011+08:00

Say Hi to Cat. :)

Tuition was really fun yesterday. Had a great laugh and my name is no longer yanxiu to someone else. Someone was trying to cheer herself up. Hi pretty can I talk to you? Don't ask me who, this is so fun! :) Someone is playing the i love you game and how, I love you too. for being such an ass. Lastly, I love hearing goodluck(s).

Jolene A.† said (3:36 PM):
*tml
*we play the apple and kiss game
Yanxiu ▲ said (3:36 PM):
*so i get an apple and a kiss from you?
Jolene A.† said (3:37 PM):
*HAHA DEFINITELY

I think I can't sleep anymore. I'm like flying.

obsessions

2009-10-04T13:36:00.003+08:00

Should I continue this way or Should I change my life?

such is life

2009-09-30T19:41:00.004+08:00

Does this reminds you of anyone you know?

.
.
.

I need to remind myself that:

- Friday's English Paper 2 + Oral
- Exams are officially starting next week
- I have no time to waste
- But why am I here?
- Time to get my ass off
- And study now
- After the exams, there will be Freedom!

Tomorrow's gonna be a tiring day but I'll pull through.

eyes like diamonds

2009-09-28T19:05:00.003+08:00

So... my ear is really swollen. I have no more alcohol left and it is getting really itchy. Today I finished my masterpiece, I'm impressed ;) And I stayed back in school after my home-econs to help Jolene with her art. Finally finished everything and left school around 6+, very tired but I think that my art has improved! I'm trying to make my almond beancurd, for the last time, for my exams tomorrow. My almond beancurd = success! ;) Want some? I feel.. like a child. Right now.

I would really love to go into a deep long sleep right now. But I can't.

you're special

2009-09-26T18:55:00.003+08:00

Love them.

lost

2009-09-25T22:14:00.004+08:00

Guess what I wrote for my compo today. The last sentence was, 'Afterall, my family is the most important to me. I love them more than anything.' And now, as soon as I reached home, my family turned upside down. I'm not in any mood to elaborate any further. It is totally so noisy and people are bothering me on MSN now. This is totally crazy.

But I guess I'm happy today. Most of today. English Compo today was average. After the test, I went out to Marina Square. But we spent 3quarters of our time finding where Marina Square was. Then, went to meet 4Gens to celebrate Cn's birthday. Missed them totally and ended up back at Valerie's house. I enjoyed myself. Walked back home alone and it was scary.

My life is in a total mess right now. Give me a break, don't talk to me.
Call me selfish or what, I don't like what you are trying to do.

Fireflies

2009-09-21T13:57:00.007+08:00

These few days, I've lost some friends and gained some friends. So tell me, is this whats life all about? Losing some and gaining some?

And no, I really don't like it. I'm not interested in finding out things anymore. Maybe I haven't been true to my feelings. I like posting posts that only I can understand, I'm weird like that.

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Help: Be a kind soul and tell me what dessert should I make for Home Econs!

fallin' slowly

2009-09-18T19:30:00.003+08:00

Today, my teacher told me to "make a good day." I replied, "Don't you mean 'have a good day?'" He smiled and said, "No, you can't have a good day, you need to make it a good day." MMT

It was a good day gone bad today. I had Lit movie after school and I think Jolene can be a good boyfriend ;) She keep asking me to lie on her. We watched 'The Princess Bride'. Half the time I couldn't catch what the characters were speaking about. I don't really understand whats the story about. Then my day got an unexpected twist.

I had 2 class tests today, I did badly for both 2 tests. Sometimes I feel that I'm deproving while everyone is improving.
Current goal: Study something everyday.

torment

2009-09-15T16:20:00.003+08:00

I don't what to tell and who to tell anymore. I want to change.

stay on

2009-09-14T17:54:00.003+08:00

Today is Day #1 of school and I feel quite... weird. Term 4 is here and I should throw my past away and start anew. Got back my science practical results today and I passed. It was my first practical test and I totally wrote answers that are out of point for some questions. ;)
And people, remember this: 'When you feel like giving up, think of why you held on for so long.'
First practical test tomorrow, wish me luck and I hope I won't screw it up. I have no idea why but I have bad feelings for tomorrow and it discourages me.

Few days back...

Brother: I don't want to eat celery.
Aunt: Then don't.
Brother: Then I can't get my salary.

Is my brother cute? Hahaha.

burnin' up

2009-09-10T14:09:00.004+08:00

Some time back then, I had Class BBQ. And it was fruitful hahaha :) OH AND I HAD FUN IN THE TOILET *inside joke* We're so loud that the boys could hear us from outside. Cool. So I stayed till 10+ and I went home and I walked back alone in the dark. I went to search for food and I ended up having Cheese Cake late at night :) Overall, nice BBQ and we should have more of this!
More pictures @wehavetwomuchfaith

P.S > I'm sorry?

hungover

2009-09-06T17:45:00.006+08:00

Stay home Sunday, guess what I was up to. Not studying, not packing, not doing anything but just staring at the computer and go to youtube.com and waste my day there. I need to get some life. Tomorrow marks the beginning of the one week break. Excited? Yea maybe for the BBQ on Tuesday. Other than that, no.

I suddenly thought of this.

Friend: How do you keep a donkey in suspense?
Me: ...
Friend: I'll tell you later.

This never fails to make me laugh 8)

Juliette

2009-09-03T19:23:00.002+08:00

I've learnt my lesson to treat Art seriously so that it won't bring me down again. I'm going to do my Art later on. Watch me. Finally August has come to an end, No more tests! At least for now. Perhaps I'm late by 3 days but its a brand new month now. Time is passing by real quick...

“What’s worse than wanting something you can’t have? It’s not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in; someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just about tear you to bits.”

Tell me why is this so true? i luv to read inspiring quotes.

irreplaceable

2009-08-31T21:01:00.003+08:00

These few days, I've been meeting up with my primary school mates and I realized we haven't talk in quite a while. Went present-hunting on Sunday then we went to Valerie's house to play Wii + bake cake. But I ended up playing Wii the whole time. Oh and it was my first time playing Wii, I know I'm slow, you don't have to tell me. So, I had a great time and I was totally screaming throughout. Haha, so much fun. :)

Went back to DQPS today and saw quite alot of familiar faces. Toured around the school and realized that the school is so colourful now. It looks like a funfair. Four of us stayed on and went to talk with our teacher. Primary school brings back so much memories... Ended up back at Valerie's house but I didn't manage to play Wii today. Thats sad. Overall, I had fun.
Love the girls.

Eoy is coming soon and my plans for tomorrow are:

1) Study something at least
2) Complete tuition homework
3) Practice GZ
4) Watch 'Up' online (too cute)
5) Pack my stuffs

I don't know when will I be able to meet the girls again. Hope it will not be long...

its gonna be okay

2009-08-28T20:41:00.003+08:00

I think I worry too much, I think I always think of the negative side, I think I should change. This few days, I've been having mixed feelings. Tired, sad, stupid, pain, happy, weird. How do I say, life's been tiring. Today I was in such great pain that I went home immediately and I'm lucky my mom was at home then I had a long nap. Ended up feeling refreshed now. This was a crap post and I really want to sleep again. Sleeping refrains me from thinking too much.

Okay so now I feel like I seriously don't belong anywhere now and sometimes words can kill. They hurt. Waiting for time to pass now before I can get back to sleep again. Call me a pig - I don't really care. So you can tell now, I'm not in the best of mood. :<

I have been posting at some other place so if I don't post much @blogger, don't blame me. I prefer to stay anonymous.

Finding neverland.

2009-08-24T18:46:00.003+08:00

Never thought that things would turn out so bad. Not a good day. Really bad :@ But be strong, I'm gonna be strong.

a) english was okay
b) science was hella disappointing
c) maths wasn't any better
d) my life is pretty much screwed
e) i still can't get into studying mood
f) honestly, to tell the truth, i was taken-aback
g) ignorance is bliss
h) i feel happy for those who scored well
i) and those who did not scored well, don't give up!
j) had a long lunch with jolene
k) and, should i tell or should i not tell?

I really don't know what I'm thinking, I need some time alone. And sometimes, I wished I will think twice before I say anything. Maybe I should consider being a mute. I regretted.
I am fine. I just need to think.

stay on, stay strong.

2009-08-21T22:01:00.006+08:00

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

YAY/NAY? Inspiring? I found my goal today, Unexpectingly. And I realized I lead a boring life, way too boring...

Knots.

2009-08-19T21:27:00.003+08:00

So long since I came back here. Been busy the past few weeks, had tests and loads of homework and not finishing them and the cycle repeats itself. Common Tests have ended after such a long time. Gonna be prepared for the worst. Results will be depressing...

Caught G.I.Joe recently with Catherine, Jacinth + Joey. It was awesome but half the time, I was hoping for the show to end fast... I skipped tuition and my dad was pretty angry.

I'm catching the flu bug soon, I'm feeling so bad. Sore throat, flu, ulcers, jelly legs.

And I need to tell myself this:

I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore. I won't be bothered by it anymore.

If I say this a hundred times, maybe I'll not be bothered by it anymore.

Love Drunk

2009-08-12T19:15:00.004+08:00

Youtube's not working, I can die.

I enjoyed myself pretty much today although I'm tired... When people change, things change and when things change, Move on. Can't wait for CA2 to be over before I can carry on my carefree life. Stress! Pretty much screwed up History. Don't want the others to get screwed up too. + Chinese tomorrow! Good luck to all xx

I failed my 2.4km run again, come to think of that, when did I even passed? Not like I want to fail it but argh, running is just not my kind of thing. Maybe this is my obstacle in my life. How many times have I told myself not to fail but still give up and walk in the end. Okay, I shall not dwell over it.

Ya and, I just found out I've lots of overdue-d homework. :(
I need motivation.
I need to study.
I have to do well this time round.
I don't want to regret.

Off to get things done. And, look forward to my weekly post every week :)

Take time to realize.

2009-08-08T13:37:00.006+08:00

What if I tell you I luv my look-a-like ^^ eyebrows, I luv my tiny-weeny eyes, I luv how the contrast done to my face and I luv taking photographs like that with the image distorted? Will it change the impression of me to you? :)

Happy Birthday Yonghui :)

Lazy to elaborate what I did yesterday. Was dead tired. Went to celebrate YH's birthday. Sang, played and jumped. Rest of the photos are @YH's cam. Group photos etc. Afterall, yesterday was a long day. :)

PS: Oh, and I'm quite sad that the class photo is without J and C. Lookie Look. I said I
was sad. Haha.

Above all.

2009-08-04T16:28:00.001+08:00

I'll blog when I'm free/ I feel like blogging/ I've interesting stuffs to blog. Right now, my life is like at its lowest peak and I feel demoralized. And now, I've to rush out for tuition soon. Commontest is coming, and this is stress! Especially when the people around me are like mugging hard. Okayz, this is a total nonsense post. You can ignore it. On hiatus.

Oh, and KHJ is my luv forever (L)

and lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOUKEE :) NO PRESENT FOR YOU HAHAHA.

/edit:
I.AM.NOT.FEELING.WELL @8:51pm.
I.AM.GOING.TO.PRACTICE.GUZHENG.FOR.REAL @8:52PM

Opposites attract.

2009-07-31T21:57:00.014+08:00

Like pretty awesome, the girl's pretty :)

Everlasting.

2009-07-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

At least I was happy today. But I'm deprived of sleep. I'm going to sleep at 10. Had gz after school and... I kept talking with the usuals. Ran just to eat our lunch. And trying to fall asleep or rest every minute I can. Tired.

Then the best part of today is, I got scolded bo nao - means no brain in some dialect by a lao uncle just because I accidentally stepped on his feet on the MRT. I wanted to say sorry but because of this 'bo nao' thing, I didn't. Best of the best.

I just realized I'm always looking forward to tomorrow. Because I keep hoping of some things...

Don't do that.

Easy come, easy go.

2009-07-28T15:28:00.001+08:00

will be a better day.

Perhaps I may mean nothing to you. Perhaps Karma is getting back on me. Perhaps life is unfair. Perhaps this was just a mistake. Perhaps nobody knows how I feel. Perhaps everything gone wrong. Perhaps its not fate. Perhaps I shall stop dreaming. Perhaps its not too late to move on.

When the going gets tough, what do you do? I miss the days when I was so free and I could sleep my day off. Lately, I've been so busy. Breathe. Slow things down.

Mistakes.

2009-07-25T19:40:00.004+08:00

Today I discovered that Stacey was my nursery friend! She says I'm very slow and she seems angry that I've forgotten about my nursery friends. Okay tell me, how many of you remembered your nursery friends? Haha, anyway she send me the photos and I keep laughing at it. I've changed alot + I forgot half of my classmates. And I'm the only one who smiled in the photo.

I need to talk to someone, I think I need to rant. Where's Jolene? :(

Oh, and I want:

I told my mom, and she said it was too expensive. Guess I've gotta wait for the price to drop :( And my phone is dying. I'm counting down its remaining days now.

Happy Birthday Careen!
Stay happy and smile. Enjoy your day although its late now but, hope that you had a happy day. Yeah, 14 years old. Love you haha. Your fav line :)

Stronger than Yesterday

2009-07-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

TGIF, did very badly for science test. No confidence. I really don't know how I survived today. Because 1) I was quite irritated today in class. 2) I feel really tired. 3) I was waiting for something that never happened. 4) I kept thinking of things. 5) I was distracted. 6) I feel confused. Today marks the end of these sufferrings. Weekends are coming, no more brooding over some shit. To end off, I feel really grateful to have friends by my side. I feel like saying thanks to all. No matter what, what I do, how irritating or how hard am I to deal with, you're still my friendz. :) Thanks, really.

C.H.E.R.I.S.H - thats what I learned in gz on thursday. I need to do some self-reflecting soon.

Thinking back, what if we never met?

Mixtape.

2009-07-21T16:06:00.005+08:00

School was great maybe except maths. I need help. And today @home econs I told Joey my secret(S) ^^
Sometimes things that you want it to happen don't happen. But things you don't want it to happen, happened. Have you ever wonder why? Because things that you want it to happen only comes at the unexpected times.

I feel... demoralized.

Need hardcore studying, great motivation, good concentration skills and a good environment to study.

Don't stop dreaming.

2009-07-17T14:41:00.004+08:00

Today was awesome. Had maths class test today and thank god it was still manageable. I didn't really studied for it. Then we had 2 free periods for science. Played some games with the girls. Had loads of fun ^^V Then we went to the library. And there goes my day. Awesome.

Now is the time for me to get some sleep. But before I go, I've to finish off these things first:

• Do maths.
• Beat my high score in cube field.
• Get a new skin.
• Read the book that I've borrowed today.
• Fireworks!

Tell me, isn't this beautiful?

Far away.

2009-07-15T15:35:00.003+08:00

I'm different from you. Bear that in mind.

PS: I still think short posts are my type :-) and Jolene's display picture is so funny. Hahaha. Can't help but laugh.

Vindicated.

2009-07-13T16:17:00.003+08:00

Tech Support: Thank you for calling tech support for HOS - that’s Human Operating Systems. How can I be of assistance?

Customer: Well I’ve had this Love Program sitting around for a while and finally decided to install it. But it seems a bit complicated and I don’t want to mess it up. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Absolutely. That’s why I’m here. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: I think so.

Tech Support: Great. Let’s go. The first step is to check for any potentially conflicting programs that might be running in your heart .

Customer: Sounds good. How do I do that?

Tech Support: First hit Ctrl, Alt, Delete all at the same time. Got it?

Customer: Yes.

Tech Support: Great: Now click on the tab that says Heart Applications. Do you see that?

Customer: I do. Got it.

Tech Support: Perfect. What applications are running.

Customer: I see Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge
and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, we’ll have to uninstall the Grudge and Resentment programs. They prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and click on the Forgiveness program. You may need to do this several times in order to completely erase Grudge and Resentment from the system. In fact, I recommend that most people run their forgiveness program at least once a day.

Customer: I can see what you mean. It feels like this might take a while.

Tech Support: I can wait. Take your time…

Customer: Okay, done! And it seems like Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do? *

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Go to the Start Menu again and click on the Self-Acceptance program. Got it?

Customer: Yes. It’s running.

Tech Support: Great now go to the modules drop-down menu and check the boxes next to: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Perfect. Now, click on the box that says “Copy new modules to Heart Directory.” And then click on the “OK” button. Once you do that, the system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming.

Customer: Done… Hey! I can feel my heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Shareware. And the interesting thing is that the more you share it with others the more stable your personal installation will become. So be sure to pass it along to everyone you meet.

Customer: I’ll definitely do that. Thank you so much,.

Tech Support: Thank YOU for installing Love!

This is so cute. I wonder if it is really that easy.

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Even though I hate maths alot, I still have to try to love it becos' I've a million questions waiting for me to solve. I don't know why but today, I feel math. Maybe becos' this is a wake-up call as during today's math lesson, I took quite a long while to understand things. This sucks. I'm still finding my motivation. Slowly.

I think I tweet more than I blog. So people, if I ain't posting, you can look at my tweets lol. And I want to watch fireworks this saturday! But, I promised my mum to go for a wedding dinner at XXX place. ): Next next saturday anyone?

Last of all, tomorrow will be a better day :)

Over and out.

2009-07-09T16:05:00.004+08:00

This is something new. The kind of feeling I'm feeling right now. Its the start of something new. I'm still trying to figure out what are you thinking. Time to stop thinking and get things done. Its Friday tomorrow, my favourite day. Afterall, its been a great day. :)

And, I think I'm beginning to like chinese lessons (again). :)

Sealed.

2009-07-08T15:34:00.003+08:00

School's tiring. I'm still not used to schooling. 2nd day of school and going on. Anticipating Friday. But for now, I've to finish the homeworks which are due tomorrow ): History + Maths + Science. Determination. :>

Lessons today are okay. I really don't like PE though. English was killer. Others were okay I guess. Oh and I laughed till I can't talk during chinese. Tomorrow = History + Maths + Science. :( Did you all realise that when I went back school, my posts are all about studies now? Haha, I'm a school girl ^^V

My eyelids are heavy, it kept telling to sleep. But I can't.

P.S: Catherine! I won't forget our date in december ^^V!

Oh and careen, check your livejournal. I posted a long comment for you :) I don't know why am I telling you this but ah, just check. Haha.

Overall, today is a nice and tiring day.

Pull my heartstrings.

2009-07-05T15:04:00.004+08:00

The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.

Its been a day. I'm still wondering what exactly will that be. I really can't seem to figure out. I hope I don't miss my chance. This is bothering me too much. Maybe its _______?

What doesn't kill, makes you stronger. So true. No Boundaries by Kris Allen motivates me. :) I still love that song. School's starting in 2days' time. I'm anticipating yet worried. (homeworks) And today I realised something - I miss cca. Weird.

Electric sparks.

2009-07-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

New day, new beginning, fresh start.
Woke up aching all over.
Is having a terrible headache now.
For no reason.
Felt like sleepingz but i've to do work.
Yesterday I took a nap,
and then I couldn't sleep at night,
then I ended doing stupid things like:
counting sheeps.
What a day.

Tomorrow will be better.

Getting stronger.

2009-07-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

Why is it that this song still can make me tear even after hearing it for so many times?

PS: I just found out something about myself, I procastinate alot. I can't wait for school to re-open.

Sorrowful.

2009-06-29T16:20:00.009+08:00

Our AYG's performance has been called off. School is extending another week of holidays. Many were disappointed that we won't be able to perform. So am I. Sucks, this means that I've to go for tuition ):

Other than this, my past few weeks has been boring.

(i)I didn't went out very often.
(ii) I didn't went jogging.
(iii) I haven't do revision.
(iv) But yeah, I've talk to a long-lost friend :)
(v) I realised that I can't type proper english now. Must be due to not blogging for weeks.
(vi) No school tomorrow. Again.

Sit and Pretend.

2009-06-19T22:03:00.003+08:00

A new layout makes me feel like blogging more so therefore I shall get a new layout before I start ranting again. Currently, my internet is loading as slow as a snail and I totally cannot stand it and I'm getting irritated already. And I heard that there might be an extension of holidays. I hope there's an extension. I'm too lazy for school. Okay bye. I've to go to school tomorrow. I shall end early. Besides, my internet is pissing me off totally.

and it seems like it don't matter to you anymore. it hurts.

Breather.

2009-06-17T13:44:00.002+08:00

Today is stay home Wednesday. Bored. I can't believe I didn't went out for the whole of this week. Okay I'm going out tomorrow. I shall log on to facebook in hoping that -someone- will talk to me. Sad.

Oh anyway, I've got a plurk, twitter. Follow/add me as friend :>

Short posts for now. Bye.

Infinite

2009-06-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

Tips for a better life.

Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
Sleep for 7 hours
Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
Play more games.
Read more books than you did the previous year.
Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
Dream more while you are awake.
Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
Drink plenty of water.
Try to make at least three people smile each day.
Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
Smile and laugh more.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don’t compare your partner with others.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Forgive everyone for everything.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful. (I’m trying really hard to do this.)
Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
The best is yet to come.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
Do the right thing!
Call your family often.
Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
Each day give something good to others.
Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

Today was a nice day. I met up with people whom I haven't seen in a while. They are lovely people. And best of all, it was a buffet. :> Even though it was a short and sweet one, I really miss those days. And I almost wanted to cut my hair after so many donkey years but I didn't in the end. Because I'm scared I'll regret and the hairdresser was not in. So, I'm still back in my hair. I think I want to cut soon. I'm so frustrated with my hair now. >:( Okay. I shall end it here. Bye peoplez.

Soft Whispers

2009-06-11T19:34:00.002+08:00

Anyway can tell me how do you spend your holidays meaningfully? :X

By staring at Kim Hyun Joong's picture whole day long, or go around Singapore and tries to find a secret hiding place, or get yourself drowned in the big pile of homework, or maybe eat like everything you can find in your house, or even sleep like a pig?

This is called boredom. But apparently, I still have friends who can make me laugh ^^

I can't sleep well for days. I don't know why. I keep waking up in the middle of the night. And can't fall asleep again. This sucks.

Sweet Summer

2009-06-08T18:34:00.007+08:00

I don't know why but to me, photography tells alot. In life, we tend to not notice about the littlest things but actually its the littlest things that make life look beautiful. Every little thing counts. Its the little things that make up the big picture.

Random, but...

(7:09 PM) STACEYYTAN[: : why u offline ?
(7:10 PM) Yanxiu 8): later i online nobody talk to me i will be very sad

yeah its true.

Anyway, I'm waiting for Guzheng camp ^^ ANTICIPATING I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I LIKE CAMPS (8

Battlefield

2009-06-06T17:46:00.010+08:00

My leg hurts. like crap. ):
I will never want to be late again.

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And, I've fallen in love with ...

Citylights. They're so beautiful.

Dear friend, I may not have been a good friend to you. But to me, you're part of me already. But it seems like we've drifted and things are not the same anymore. But I hope you won't forget me. I'm always here for you and I hope we can be back the same. I just want to tell you that I miss you and I love you.

Sharmaine blogged about me, Stacey blogged about me. Check out their posts ^^

Today is KIM HYUN JOONG'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU, YOU'RE MY DREAM GUY HAHA ^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Speak your mind

2009-06-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

I caught Night At The Museum 2 with the usuals today. The show was quite okay I guess. Then we walked around aimlessly and waited for Stacey. Trained to Bishan and went to see bears. (lol) Hmmmm, then we went to the arcade. The arcade is like forever blingy, dark and noisy. And actually, its been like a few months since I went to the arcade. Ah, and Y & C played the basketball and they got over-excited and start ranting and exclaiming to us how fun it was. Okay maybe it was really fun but I didn't try it. Then I got my Yami Yoghurt + Fruit Pebbles. Nice ^^V Trained back home and today is annoying because my brother is at home and he annoys me.

This June Holidays, I'm going to:

1. Learn to cherish
2. Read more books, don't be lazyyy to go to the library.
3. Self-study.
4. Jog and keep fit ^^V
5. SHOP ITS THE GSS BABY
6. Pack my books/table/cupboard.
7. Go around and explore the world. (maybe singapore will do)
8. OH I NEED TO GET A BACKPACK REALLY URGENTLY.

Oh, I miss heart2heart talks. I miss some people and I really want to see them soon.

All thats left of Yesterday

2009-05-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

Lately, I haven't been blogging a proper post. My posts are all so shabby and boring. Maybe complicated and have lots of secret meanings. (as I seen from some of the tags) So maybe I should change...

School life is so weird without Jacinth. See Jacinth, I missed you :) I think you're having a great time over at Taiwan. Haha you'd better come back faster. Had PE and I played Badminton. Whoohoo. Then I went to run with Jayner and Jolene. Halfway, I stopped to talk with Jolene. So we poured out our feelings to each other. We're very troubled over life and is trying to learn to cherish things.

Then after school I wasted 2hours of my life doing meaningless things. Like waiting for the library to open. But I had fun talking about some people :) BUT I FELT REALLY BAD. I THINK I'M VERY MEAN BUT HAHA NEVERMIND, WE ARE ALL VERY MEAN. Crazy but I like the craziness.

Now I'm all alone at home. The dark is falling. I've been on my earphones for the past 3hours. I hope I don't go deaf. I've been listening to some emo songs which is so stupid. I should have listen to Doremon's or SesameStreet or anything else.

So, I've sorted things out. If you're that happy, then I know its time to let go. Ignoring don't help. Slowly, step by step, I've learn to let go. Things shouldn't have even started in the very first place. Maybe we're better off without each other. I'll let go.

Now the climax. HAHAHA okay I shall not be shy and reveal. I love jolene and jolene loves me. :) Jolene was been waiting for my post for the last 30mins. Haha, so do you like this post? I like ^^V

To Joey: Is this post long enough? ^^

I'm not emo, but I'm actually quite happy.

Knock you down

2009-05-27T21:31:00.003+08:00

I used 1hour to type this post. Stupid much. Tomorrow's gonna be a nicer day. Tomorrow the Sun's gonna shine and all the problems will fade. I will forget everything that happened today. I was a superhero today but I rather not having to be one.

"Because he has been a major part of your life , of course you'll miss him ; its perfectly normal. It's like getting your tooth pulled out ; after the dentist pulls it out and you're relieved . But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was ? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you does not mean you dont notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly . It's going to take awhile , but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth ? No , because it was causing you pain. Pulling out the tooth was the right decision , but its going to hurt."

True heh. Why do I still feel this way?

Rain on our cheeks

2009-05-26T16:38:00.006+08:00

I removed the whole post. Don't ask me why. Sorry but today I don't feel like typing. I only feel like sleeping.

Today during art class, teacher asked us to answer some questions about yourself. And I don't know what to write for questions like, 'how do you like to potray yourself?', 'which objects/symbol best describes you?', 'what are your most memorable experiences?' I felt like I didn't understand myself well enough. I hate it when I feel this way. So now, who can read my mind?

Lost in the sea of faces

2009-05-21T20:02:00.003+08:00

Too happy for words today. :) :) :) Love my woolala friendz.

This video is cute only. And today I did something cool. I discoverd my own fortune. I shan't tell you how I did it. Haha, although it might not be true but it was way cooooool :) Then I bus-ed home and walked home together with Stacey. That siaoz one. Its been so long having someone walking home together with me :)

Okay bye bye. I'm going to comb my hair for the next 1hour so that it can grow 2 more inches faster! I'm mad and I don't know what to do.

HAHA AND ________ THE BEST :)

Is it true.

2009-05-20T17:35:00.004+08:00

I've got a spliting headache. Really splitting. So what to do? I should just go and sleep. Urgh. I've a long day at school tomorrow and I need to sleep early tonight. Its 5.30 now maybe I should sleep at 7. Siaoz. Okay what am I talking about. I'm mad. Die.

I cannot watch TV becos' its spoilt. I've a splitting headache also. Okay and now my stomach is in pain. Today is not a nice day. ):

kar⋅ma
–noun
1. Hinduism, Buddhism. action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation: in Hinduism one of the means of reaching Brahman. Compare bhakti (def. 1), jnana.
2. Theosophy. the cosmic principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.
3. fate; destiny.
4. the good or bad emanations felt to be generated by someone or something.

Maybe this is karma. But what did I do wrong?

Your smile is contagious

2009-05-17T18:16:00.002+08:00

HAI HAI ^^v

My life is b.o.r.i.n.g. And I've a stalker on facebook. Scary much. I decided not to be on good terms with strangers. For the past few days, I've seen lots of jealous people around. Jealousy kills. If life is fair... It will be nice.

This post is redundant. It describes my Sunday. Boring. Next week I'm going shopping. I don't care. :)

Oh and shall I get a haircut? :>

Unvalentine.

2009-05-14T20:20:00.002+08:00

Infuriating. Just infuriating. I thought that it was the end but I realized I still have to carry on. I need to rant. I don't want history to repeat itself. Or I'll regret again...

These few days have been very slack in school. Either checking of scripts or going thru' the scripts. The good thing is that I didn't fail any subject. Phewwwww, mere pass in geography but yeah I still passed. Results are disappointing but I've gotta over it already. Time to move on.

I.NEED.TO.BREATHE

Thanks. You all made my day :)

Beautiful Mistakes.

2009-05-12T16:59:00.005+08:00

You know what is the hardest? The hardest is trying to put up such a strong front, trying so hard not to cry and trying to stay strong. But inside, you're so weak, deep down, so weak... I've gotten over it, time to try harder next time. And thanks to everyone for trying to cheer me up but instead, all you get was my cold shoulder. I'm sorry and I thank all of you. I shouldn't really have let my emotions get over me. I'm such a bad friend. ):

I'm going to watch a show or something. Yeah. Tadah.

Maybe it was a mistake right from the start. I shouldn't have believed in you.

Speak Low.

2009-05-10T18:17:00.017+08:00

Haha, today is her birthday :) Happy birthday girl and I luv' you very much :) (winks) And don't be too troubled hurhur. :)

Haven't been blogging for days. Finally back in action becos' my midyears are over! And now I dread Tuesday. I just did all my reflections online and every subject, I will go: 'I think I didn't do well.' ): So sad.

Oh and did I tell you that I went to the Botanics Garden? :) The Botanics Garden have lots of weird stuffs. Got people wearing TUTU dress (HAHAHA), alot of angmoh and a look-alike transformer. I wanted to steal balloons at Botanics Garden but I decided not to. Haha, overall the Botanics Garden is fun :) But we missed two bus-stops and had to walk back two bus-stops to reach Botanics Garden. Dumb haha but I like :) But we're not photogenic then so I don't dare to post the ugly photos. Haha, and jy said:'I also very sweet set our picture as my wallpaper.' :) Yes, very sweet.

And people, I finally gotten a life. Whoo, I'm glad. But Tuesday gonna bring my spirits down. ):

P.S> My family called PizzaHut and I'm eating Pizzas right now :)

I shall post overdued photos because I just gotten them yesterday.

Yay, I love this bunch. Jumpshots are fun! :)

Beauty in Breakdown

2009-05-07T19:14:00.005+08:00

Today was a great day :) Went to kbox after DnT exam. Mentioning about DnT, I was rushing against time half the time. And I have no confidence. Actually all the exams, I don't have any confidence. Okay, just gotta accept it when the results come. And work hard the next time.

So hi, pictures-time :)

Looking back today, I thought of alot of things. Like why and why and why. I hate it when things goes wrong. When things doesn't go your way. When everything seems like crashing down. Suddenly, I just felt so wrong. Like the one you thought was your best wasn't your best. People say, 'Dont let someone be a priority in your life when you are have an option in their life.' Yah so like whats the point now. Things went so wrong so so wrong. ):

Why am I feeling this way. Shit.

Drop every fear.

2009-05-06T16:07:00.003+08:00

Somebody just made my day and I'm smiling right now :)
Okay maybe laughing haha.

Haha, and stacey stalks ________. -disgusted-

Backtrack.

2009-05-01T11:31:00.006+08:00

"Everything you say. Every time we kiss I can't think straight. But I'm okay. And I can't think of anybody else. Who I hate to miss. As much as I hate missing you. So please give me your hands. So please give me a lesson on how to steal. Steal a heart as fast as you stole mine. As you stole mine, yeah."

Yesterday's night was very entertaining v^^v I've got like 4 conversations and we're talking about hiliarious things that made me laugh like a mad cow. ^^ Haha, seriously.

Today is HEY MAY. HI MAY :>
Today gonna be a short + boring day. Gotta get back to lifez and start mugging. Like right NOAW. :) Haha, all the best for your mid-years okay. Will update when I've got time + interesting facts to tell. Goodluck. ^^V

Romeo and Juliet was nice HAHA :> Beat that. Romeo is shuai.

Get over it.

2009-04-29T15:57:00.004+08:00

Yeah just follow your heart to wherever it takes you.

I'm feeling very bored. Like totally. ): Got alot of things on my mind. + lots of work to do. And the weather just have to be so distracting. BUAY TA HAN. okay, bye. this is an extra post to spice up my dead blog :)

And today, I lost my whole pile of literature Merchant of Venice worksheet. Great just great. Best thing that happened to me in school ever. Oh and I like Ms Lee but she's leaving ):

Just the two of us.

2009-04-27T17:58:00.008+08:00

Hardcore cutexxx :)
Still got pictures, + jumpshots pictures + wet from head to toe pictures :) Today I got a hug from Jolene saying that she misses me and feel like crying because I went missing suddenly. I went to find Ms Lee to get back my wallet at the science lab (dumb) Literature remedial was productive but I was half the time yawning 0.0 And I manage to absorbed light topic :) HURRAY. Time to study for chinese tomorrow.

Princess on a Pony.

2009-04-26T12:58:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I had a sudden craving for ice-cream at around 8pm, then I went down and get ice-cream and I finished it within 5minutes. Retarded but i like. - Because its the littlest imperfections that make you perfect.

Had camp:

-Had de-brief.
-Stayed very long at the music room to camwhore :)
-Went down and waited at canteen.
-WE SANG OUR SYF PIECE SONG WHEN WE CUT OUR CAKE OMG KEWL!
-Ate the yumyum cake :):):) HUNGRY LA
-Prepare our water bombs.
-PLAYED WATER BOMBS LIKE MAD, BY POURING WATER INTO PEOPLE's TSHIRT. Drenched from head to toe. HAHA damn fun.
-We had to clean up ):
-Went to play volleyball/badminton/captain's ball
-MY TEAM LEADING FOR THE 1ST MATCH :)
-Then Oriana's toe bled. Whole toe-nail like stucked, dangling. Ew, very disgusted. HOPE ORIANA'S TOE IS BETTER NOW!
-I went home, I didn't go for dinner.

It was very fun that 6 hours. Played like krazy + mad. Now muscle aching. First time I run so much for captain's ball. First time I had so much fun with the seniors. First time seeing them getting all wild. First time we've took so much photos together. And now, everytime first time(s) will be the last time(s). Love you all very much. Wonder when we're gonna have something like this again.

Will blog a proper post when I've all the pictures :)

xxx

I need to move on with life now. I can't stop and wait. Whatever it takes, I'm gonna do my best. Just my best. My mom told me: 'Just put how much effort you put for syf into your studies.' GOLD. Yes I'm trying very hard. Bye I shall keep to my words and scram off to my books.

Break the dusk

2009-04-24T18:55:00.005+08:00

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

xx,

This song woke me up when I was half-asleep. Woah, best. Very refreshing. Haha, tomorrow got camp :) Water balloons, whip cream and amazing race HAHA :) And I went blog-stalking for the whole afternoon today - quite fun :) Today got english paper 1, situational + compo. No confidence ): You + I Both LOVED HAHAHA :) Very high right now, + I love your smiles.

out of place, you.make.me.feel.that.way.

worth it.

2009-04-21T21:21:00.005+08:00

I think yesterday's post sums up the whole thing. And I really love PHS GUZHENG. Thick and thin, we went through all. We've made the impossible to possible. We've had ups and downs, happy times and sometimes tears and even felt really afraid. Yes and now the sec4s are leaving us, we're left to stand on our own. But I know, I'll never forget how we went through all these just for syf, everything.

And today, we're gathered one corner at the canteen, waiting anxiously for the results. Hoping for the best, knowing that we didn't played that well. And that moment where the seniors picked up the call, the unknown feeling... And we've a gold :) That split second I cried. Tears of joy really. The tears rolled down and I saw many cried. It felt so heartwarming. All the effort, all the time, sacrifices... We've got what we wanted. We've got what we deserved. What we work so hard for... I love PHS GUZHENG :) Really.

So, I'm looking foward to the camp on Saturday. And be it the very last time we can spend together, I will never forget that I'm once part of this syf, this group. (L)(L)(L)

And I love these future-to-be leaders :) + we love our roses!

shimmering spotlights.

2009-04-20T22:17:00.004+08:00

So the 10mins on stage, the 10mins of spotlight, the 10mins of joy, the 10mins of everything that we, PHSGZ, have put in very much effort in. Afterall, it was a tiring process and everyone is tired. Sometimes, we almost was close to giving up. But because of the sec4s, we held on. We had to walk this journey together with them. We had to be a part of the music that we never was part of 2 years' back. We've to do our best, because the seniors had confidence in us. At first, there were excitement, we're all excited for the day that we've been looking forward to. But after that 10mins, that 10mins up on stage. The excitement is lost suddenly... We felt so lost so so lost. We didn't have confidence and many cried. I held back my tears twice. But many said, we've work hard and we'll get what we deserve and we'll accept any award that the judges gave. But look, aren't the award, the glory, the gold is what we're aiming for? Is what we're capable and is trying to reach for? Its too late for regrets suddenly. Looking at the forlorn faces, I can't help to wonder what I'll be in 2 years' time. Where, we(sec2 batch), will be the one leading the guzheng ensemble. We want to make a history, for no one did as well as we did before. And whatever the results may be tomorrow, I just want to make a point that I love PHSGUZHENG and I'm not ashamed to be in this CCA. I even feel proud to be in this CCA. We'll reap what you sow, I still remember how we spent our time together. For today was the last and the most important performance ever. Not for you, not for me, but for the Guzheng Ensemble. I love the Guzheng Ensemble. And I thank people for the encouragment and the never-ending cheers and the cards, lollipops and such. We'll never have made this far, without anyone of you. PHS GUZHENG ENSEMBLE. (L)(L)(L)

Staticheartxz.

2009-04-19T13:34:00.006+08:00

No, I'm not gonna be the next Lazy Jane.
HAHA, silly.

TOMORROW IS MY NEXT BIG DAY I'M EXCITED MUCH. AND I SPENT MY DAY DOING STUPID THINGS. ): BOO

(edit)
My stomach is being a total bitch right now. Hurting like crap. Why does this always happen to me when I've eventful stuffs happening to me the next day? ): It hurts so much... And I don't know why I think of you when I'm caught in situations like this. Maybe there isn't a reason at all.

I need to:

01) Study science for science test on Wednesday.
02) Cut my nails.
03) DO chinese homework - LOL
04) Lit also haven't do. - But lucky I'm skipping school tomorrow.
05) EH I NEED TO BATHE NOW NOAW NOAAW.

Stupid sun cannot tahan sia.

Rose to my lips.

2009-04-17T19:04:00.003+08:00

In case you don't know, I've a new blog :) I'm just finding the right time to move.

AND YAY TO MYSELF, I'VE SURVIVED 1 WHOLE WEEK OF TEDIOUS TRAININGS AND TOMORROW WILL BE THE LAST AND THE LAST AND NO MORE. CAN YOU SENSE MY HAPPINESS? SO YEAH ALL THE BEST GOOD LUCK AND BRING BACK WHAT WE DESERVE :)

I just screamed at dad, I flunked my tests, I'm missing someone I shouldn't, I killed an awesome big load of ants, I am irritated. >:( My life is upside-down.

Know what? I feel like trying something I haven't tried before... like, piercing my ears, eating one whole tub of ice-cream, get a new hairstyle(been ages). Random.

Time to study and work hard...

And out come all these words

2009-04-11T19:49:00.004+08:00

Taking a break, won't be blogging so much :)

Wow, I'm motivated. Thanks seniors :) 8 hours of practice today, almost killed me. And today, I almost cried. I held back my tears, I didn't want to cry. So, we're left with 9 more days. How much they we've worked together with each other. How much they we've endured together. How much more to go... 1 last week, just 1. And I hope to see smiley faces after that 1 week. Love you all always :)

MYEs are coming straight after SYF. And I haven't made full use of Good Friday. I ought to start studying soon. Class tests are all coming one by one next week. Okay, time to wake up! Got to learn time-management and stress-management. :)

Ohyes, I went shopping yesterday :) Shopping cures depression, its true. I bought my rhinestone sandals and my haivanas! HAHAHA so happy x2 Best of all, my mom forked out the money. Need to go on another shopping spree soon... :)

9 more days, the fear is there. I'm scared. Work hard!

live your life until your love is found, or love's gonna get you down

2009-04-09T18:24:00.004+08:00

Ohno. Shit my stomach is freakin' pain now. Piercing pain. - Screw it, damn. I can't take it.

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You know what? - I think High Heels is the new fun. I wore High Heels for the whole of today. Even though my toe hurts, it was still fun :) HAHA, learn to become a lady. So SYF rehearsal was short and sweet. We had pizza treat for lunch and I ate only one piece because I was slow in grabbing the food. We had fun on the way back, by laughing almost at everything. And today's bus ride reminds me of NDP...

I skipped Chinese Test, Maths Test and 3 periods of DnT today.

I kinda miss school actually. Because school wouldn't be as tiring as today.

How much longer can I hold?

Make my heart beat faster.

2009-04-08T20:55:00.002+08:00

Why do I feel so numb after eating kinderjoy? Why don't I feel joyful at all? Why did things happen this way? Why is it so hard for things to be back like before? Why is it so hard? - Numb, numb all over...

Tomorrow's gonna be a nice and fun day, I hope it'll somehow cheer me up :) ShengShiong's cheer is da best i swear. I laughed alot today but somehow, after that talk, I realises I miss you very much... I don't know but I just can't... I don't know to start... I hope you feel the same way as I do. For once, I found myself lost.

If only...

"I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between, needs our attention

I see you right in front of me
As close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave
This daydream yet"

Please don't miss me tomorrow. Jacinth is so sweet during geog class today :) She said she'll miss me. Love.

Torn Between Two

2009-04-07T20:48:00.003+08:00

cra⋅zy
–adjective
1. mentally deranged; demented; insane.

Yes I love crazy days :)

1) _____ keeps 'This is my pencil case during maths class and made me laugh out loud the whole day. HAHAHA ^^
2) I ran like 1km just to get to my tuition at 7.30 when my tuition ends at 7.45.
3) I ran one round around the level because we're all restless during CCA.
4) OMG. AND TODAY JOYCE CREATED A CHEER! IS THE SHENGSHIONG ACTION! HAHAHA ^^ THEN, WE'LL SAY, GOLD WITH HONOURS, WE WANT YOU HAHAHAHA
5) CAN'T STOP LAUGHING NOW ^^

Cannot remember other events but... HAHA today was nice :)

I'm looking forward to Thursday :) + i'll have my maths test on monday instead (coolios) + i can skip two periods of chinese! HOO-LA-LA PLEASE :)

- Someone is being irritating at MSN now, but me being nice is trying to shoo him off politely.

His Co-Heir.

2009-04-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

Today is HOHO happy x 5. Geography was * laugh and laugh and laugh. I think I hate mother tongue a lot now... English was girl's talk. Music was incredible-tale-ing again and XXX tried to scare me. Literature was busy rushing thru' the undone work. Science was FA-BU-LOUS. Then stayed back awhile to poke into Ms Lee's life :) :) :) Then hesitate of whether to go to the birthday celebration. Didn't go in the end. Went to Mondo and started trying on high heels :) TEMPTED LA!! Got myself a heels for 10$. HOHO happy. Actually that heels was for syf... Then went to buy Subway and bid goodbye to YH. Thankyou YH :)

I predict today and tomorrow will be a study + chiong homework day. - Time to switch modes now.

Time check: 5.53pm, not one second less.

HOHO NOW IS THE TIME TO HIT THE BOOKS AND MUG MY HEADS OFF.

Teddy don't hug back but sometimes they're all you've got

2009-04-05T14:45:00.005+08:00

I'm a no-lifer. I shall go and find something to do and spice up my life...

I didn't feel like talking today. I miss that someone very much ):

xx,

PS> My hair keeps dropping, one by one, like raindrops falling off from the sky... HOW? Later I become bald-headed ):

I like Sunlight :)

Cool, no?

Yesterday was spent doing some crap Nanjing preparation, like totally wasted my time. We're doing all the work for the people going to nanjing. So this is horror x 100. And it drives us crazy. We're half shouting at Tymon's house and were pissed somehow. I will have gone to accompany choukee if not for this project...

"Heavy eyebags = me"

Childhood flames

2009-04-04T19:24:00.006+08:00

I decided not to let trival things bother me anymore. I want to be happy. But there's like something pulling me off.

I shall worry more about my studies...

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My livejournal's friends are cute :)

Beauty in and out.

2009-04-02T20:14:00.005+08:00

School's boring. Its was a busy week. And tomorrow is Friday, whoosh.

Nothing interesting to update + I don't like combining days into one post. Blame it on my busy schedule.

"Life has unexpected moments."

I love Bishan Library + Yami Yoghurt :) I look so spastic and act-cute in the photos, But you've to admit I do have good photography skills and my photos have nice angles :)

Chinese Listening Comprehension today is like a beautiful disaster for me. Wow.

Heart-failure.

2009-03-30T19:48:00.003+08:00

You can never get a all-good-things day. Or should I think that it hadn't appear in my life yet. You can never get a really good day where you're really happy and really really really HAPPY. )':<

I laughed alot today, In Music(!!), In Literature, In Science :) Music was da best, haha. We're watching Incredible Tales. Then, Min Er suddenly screamed and all the girls screamed too! (maybe not all) Then the boys pulled a prank on Chester. Scared him to bits. :) Even Mrs Wong was laughing! Haha.

Shaun scared me in Science today. !~!@#@$#@%^#^ By boo-ing me right to my face. Stupid me, should've known, should've known~ :)

I thought today will be a great day after all these happenings...

BUT, not went you miss your MRT train right in your eyes and your bus TWICE right in your eyes. And knowing that you still have a chance to catch that bus, you sticked to the ground, not wanting to rush for the bus. This is stupid x2

Ohyah, I just got two thrashings today. One during English, one during Maths. How motivating.

And yes, me, being a kind soul, is wishing PHSband to do well for their SYF tomorrow :) And most importantly, PHSGZ to get gold :)

21 more days.

Love on delivery.

2009-03-28T19:00:00.003+08:00

“Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.”

15 things about me:

1. I'm unexpected.
2. I laugh alot, but I don't smile. (according to my teacher and friends)
3. I tend to do things I'd regret.
4. My eyes are as small as an ant's.
5. I've heavy eyebags even though I sleep early.
6. When I say something, I don't mean it sometimes.
7. I like to blast my earphones when I'm sad.
8. I like to dream, dream about everything.
9. But I don't have dreams at night when I sleep ):
10. My friends are crazy but I love them :)
11. Boo, I want to be fat.
12. I hate copycats eventhough I'm one sometimes :)
13. I like to talk with funny people.
14. I've a brother that plays lego!
15. I want to be the top student. HAHAHA.

So, I'm feeling random right now. And, I did something wrong I think :( And I find it hard to approach that person. So now, I think we'll have a cold war ): Ever since of that incident, I don't ever want to repeat my same mistakes again. And this time, I'm not going to burst and explode.

Okay, so bye. - My annoying brother is pissing me off just of his stupid scrabble game. >:(

Two worlds apart.

2009-03-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams"

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Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

This week's been boring, not so much of eventful stuffs. And we just got our ez-link card replaced. And I look like some shit with heavy eye bags 0.0 - Bangs head. )':< And today, I waited for someone in vain. My world is starting to turn upside-down. Now

Today's PE was a killer. Run, stop, 10push-ups. Run, stop, 10 sit-ups. Run, stop, 20 jumping jacks. And this goes on and on and on for the whole of 1 hour. Then shuttle run. Then stretching. I sweat the most this PE lesson. - Change of teacher and we get such tedious trainings. How great.

Weekends are coming! There's guzheng tomorrow and we'll be in our pink cinderalla costume. :)

Sugar, spice and everything nice.

2009-03-23T19:59:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a Sweet day, I ate candyfloss + kinderjoy! :)

Anything sweet makes me happy :) Happy girl

xx

Today was the first day of school. And it was a crazy day.

My bag got snipped off. I chased after my bus. I realised my grammar sucks. And it was super hot today. I wonder why ):

Haha, I guess many of you also didn't enjoyed your first day, especially Jacinth! H-A-H-A :) But it was nice being back in school, back studying, back working towards your goal. Mondays are nice because there's no Maths to endure. I dislike maths x a million. ):

So now I got to finish off my geography news article and cheerios! There's no Chinese tomorrow! :) :) :)

Clear your thoughts.

2009-03-21T22:07:00.006+08:00

This is crazy but, I just finished watching 3episodes of Boys Over Flowers. And that YH say that boys over flowers = by over flwer. I swear she can think of any ridiculous things! ^^

Tomorrow is a Do homework + homework + homework day. - Never-ending homeworks. :<

Yesterday was a great day :) 1Faith is still the best :)

And you ask me whats love?

This is love, 1Faith is teh love :) everyone look so happy in here :)

I shall upload the rest of the photos tomorrow or other days. I'm just plain lazy. HawHaw ^^

Add a lil glamour to it.

2009-03-19T17:01:00.002+08:00

I've been hesitating whether I should blog this few days, totally not like me, I know.
I was feeling giddy for the past two days, + a spliting headache that was enough to kill. And dragging out of bed at around 6 or 7. Streneous trainings at school. This is my life now, and will continue till 20th April. How awesome. But hey, Its only 1 month + 1 day now. It'll soon be over :)

Who actually loves the Holidays? - Also, I really take my hat off to those people that won't feel tired easily and can go to bed at wee hours. I can never do that. I get tire out very easily and it isn't a very good feeling. ): x 100

But I'm glad to have friends around me :) Friends whom guided me and encouraged me all the way. HAHA, someone said:'You have the potential, better work hard!' :) Thank you. Very encouraging kay, the best thing that came out from your mouth :) And friends that cheers up me and make me laugh. :)

Tomorrow is 1Faith'08 long-awaited class gathering :) Thanks Jayner! :) Go visit class blog. ho kay(: *love

Life's been good actually, I'm contended and satisfied. :)

But I've to say this. Farewell my friend, since you chose to leave.

Hearts on loose.

2009-03-16T19:48:00.004+08:00

1) I laughed too much till I get giddy when I'm on bus.
2) Unfairly treated.
3) I have to do that bloody langfest thing tomorrow, ): x 100
4) It is a sad day at school. ):
5) But stupid people cheers me up at Macs(: SIMS! Hahaha.

YEY people make me laugh like crap today. Xie Xie Ni Men, hen jiu mei you na yang xiao le! (: Inside joke!

We don't need you to judge, please don't judge. Keep the comments to yourself. Or are you trying to tell us indirectly. Mark your words. Don't take things for granted. We've given you too much chances and its time to let go since you wanted to. Bye. Time and time again, I've given in to you. -so are you really worth my time?- I doubt so now.

-I found my old blog today. Lots of memories. Times I sneak out, times I went home late, times I spent my days going out with friends, times I spend rebelling. Miss those days, somehow.

Exit throught the back alley.

2009-03-15T20:08:00.004+08:00

Someone asked me if I knew you,
a million memories flashed through my mind
and I whispered "...not anymore."

xx

Okay. I'm feeling very bored ): I should have went out today but I have to practice guzheng. Who's on, on Tuesday? Only free day of the week I guess + the weekends. This is how tedious the training gets. But, lets hold on tight, its gonna be over soon and it will be. Work hard!

And I just uploaded the rest of the photos up to my facebook account. (facebook's uploader is fast) I'm getting bored again, time to play some games. Or just stone around or just daydream or just put on my earphones. Or just sleep. Since I've school tomorrow. And its not going to be nice. argh ):

Bye* And I figured out how to create a facebook profile badge.

Pretty friends, pretty moments.

2009-03-14T19:56:00.013+08:00

Best of the best clique.

Yey I loveeee♥ langfest! Raffles is so fun, the sceneries are nice, there's lots of things to explore and on and on. And also because, we get to get back together and take photos. Missed the times together. ): So that pretty sums up my pretty friday. And I got praised by a teacher for my photography skills. HAHAHAHA YEY me.

I need to work on my smile, looking at the photos, I think my smile is plastic-ky. I look weird. So, I shall start smiling (: (: (:

Oh and today, I spent my whole afternoon webcaming with Jolene. Haha. (we webcam almost everyday haha) And omg, the superman thing so cute right! (:

And Yum I drank strawberry yoghurt drink today (: Life is great now. Yuppie.

Do you believe in true love?

2009-03-13T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling sad & happy at the same time...

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1) My leg hurts.
2) I've got photos! Wait for me to post them up =p
3) I got top 10 in class!!! ^^ (happy like whatever)
4) Nooooooooo. we're drifting. far apart. ):

Time for a gd'night sleep lovelies. wo yao qu shui jiao. ming tian zai jiang hao bu hao~ yey me. i'm happy and sad at the same time. BUT I'M HAPPIER. (: (: (: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Brighter than Sunshine.

2009-03-12T16:11:00.003+08:00

March Holiday is next week! I can't wait. I can't wait for 1Faith's gathering too! And also SYF showcase at Republic Poly! Very exciting, once in a life-time experience! There's so much things to look forward to next week. (Y)(Y)(Y)

I'm happy with my life right now, right here. I thank friends who stood by me, care for me. I've gotten closer to people that I never was close to, and I found out they are just as nice. Yeah, I love my life now. - I cannot believe it too! Haha. Love all whom cared for me, thanks!
Tomorrow is LangFest. We're going over to Raffles Place. Yeah, its so much fun! :-D I like post-exam activities.

And crap, I can't believe I'm actually feeling so random now. You know, the what every girls wants. - Shopping, camwhoring, gossiping, stalking hot guys, being overly high, all those crazy stuffs. I don't mind spending one day doing all that with my girlfriends. So anyone in for, on Sunday? (: I think I'm going out. Finally.

I'm enjoying life to its fullest. YEY ME.

Crying out for your name, hoping you'll come.

2009-03-10T16:15:00.004+08:00

It seems like I only have 2 choices. - To leave or to hold on?

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School was crap, monday was so tired that I drop dead. Today was still as bad, PE will be forever slacky because I'm totally not a sports person. Was playing ultimate frisbee then, its just as nice watching them play(: Can I say that geography is always boring. I almost fell asleep and I didn't listen to half of the lesson. Actually, I also realise something.

You may seemed like you hated something at first, but gradually you found yourself, starting to like that particular something. Is that what we, as human beings, always feel this way? Because I found myself trapped in that kind of situation so many times already. Or is it only me?

Because Love is so extraordinary.

Tomorrow and the day after is ICT day. Time for me to rest and think and reflect. This week is a short one. And I'm glad.

Listening closely to my heartbeat

2009-03-08T15:30:00.005+08:00

Life has been at its worst state. It couldn't get any worser. The stress is overwhelming. The homeworks are piling, the teachers gave you motivation but you took it for granted. Friends encourage you and you look back at her and wonder why are they caring so much about you. And you having so much other things to do, decides to look back at the past, and hold on to something that can never be back yours. How naive. Very naive.

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And that 'you' is me.

But at least, I'm thankful. People must have really hated me for taking granted of their care and concern. Like how I shouted at Mom this morning. And, worst still, my uncle and aunty decided to drop by, creating so many unnesscary noise. Is this moodswings or just plainly being Me? ):

There's another 6hours of school and 4hours of CCA I've to endure tomorrow. All the best. Yes very much.

Lastly,

"I'm selfish, impatient & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." -Marilyn Monroe

Can you handle my worst?